Back side of a Leaf
I always loved the Flowers that
blooms. Various colours and
Florence of it’s petal are Alluring
to Eyes.
I loved to be a Flower.
To be known by the circle I was
Emerging and later merging.
Why I loved the flower? Just
because it’s beautiful? Yes.
But as days passed I felt The Back
Side of Leaves.
Because I love getting Unnoticed.
Honestly it’s really overwhelm-
ing to be known sometimes in
my Life.
It’s really irritating to be called
for all the activities and not that
all the time you’ll be placed in
the Middle center sometimes in the corners too.
I loved the afar away Flower but
wouldn’t know I’ll get picked up
and plucked for Every things.
I feel like “being a Spotlight
wasn’t my thing.”
And I determined to love that
back side of the leaf.
In my school days I always loved
to be known, as like as the flower that’s seen outside.
Simply because I loved that
Attention. When Teachers or Peers
of your community made you
Centred, I thought it was Amazing.
I was quite good in capturing my
place.
I had a circle of peers around
me, I had teachers in the school
who remembered my unique
name clearly.
But as days passed, I started unloving the spotlight I’m basking
on.
“Most Peoples don’t love to be alone just because of the tag that others spread, even being in a crowd wasn’t really their thing, they don’t wanted to be called as a weirdo.”
I feel happy to take this decision
on my life and always I been
grateful for all the attention I
had gotten so far.
Just by this attention on me, I
came to know I hate attention.
Life is really beautiful when you
stop craving for other’s audience
on you.
You just want people to listen
to you, when you speak and if
you’re selective, you’ll get that
noticing point and attention being an introvert doesn’t mean you’re rejected, you reject others.
To be attentive all
the time is troublesome to me.
I’m a pretty well sorted out
person, I was good at adjusting my
levels.
As days passes I began to love my
solitude.
I thought being Alone is the most dreadful thing, Because you’ll feel lonely and things happens to Collapses.
That’s what the media around us projected within ourselves by flims and documentaries.
But if you really have a determined will and mindset your loneliness became your solace and solitude to fuel your life and future.
I wanted to be in centre because I thought it’s quite an easy way to function life and escape depression.
I don’t wanted to end up calling myself a weirdo by isolating myself.
“But now I don’t care, the society I cared died ages ago in my life, all I care about is Me.”
It took me years to realise this truth but it’s not late, I’ve years ahead to live.
Whenever I see a plant, I’ll tilt it’s leaves on the back side.
Surprisingly, I see different colours of the leaf, eggs of butterfly, small worms in green.
“There’s a whole set of different life at the back side”
“The Things that are unseen are the most Beautiful one.”
I don’t wanted to attract crowd, I wanted to get detached from Everything I do for striking a path of Audience.
Even if I get banish from other’s mind, I’ll be happy with my family, the Little circle of friends and the vast nature, my Comrade.
“To be a Back side of a leaf is what all I crave for.”
